the writings

LEAVE
lyrics written by NURZAIRIN MUSTAFFA

through my window
i see you come
without a sound
you're just there

the eyes
the face
the look
the glare

haunting me
watching me
everynight you're here with me
leave me alone
can't you see?
this fear i have brings me sorrow

vanish yourself
far from my live
if you don't need
anything from me

leave and go
stay away

haunting me
you're haunting me
i am scared
so can you please
leave me alone
just leave me alone
leave and go
just stay away

DON'T
lyrics written by NURZAIRIN MUSTAFFA

if you see me walking down the road
if you see me flying up high
if you see me crawling in the dark
if you see me hiding from the light

don't look back, don't you stare
don't you say anything to me
don't scream out, don't catch me
don't let me know you are there

i will never harm you, if you don't disturb me
i will never haunt you, if you don't tease me
i will never watch you, if you don't seek me
i will never kill you, if you don't catch me

DREAMS
poem written by NURZAIRIN MUSTAFFA

in your cold slumber,
comes looming creatures,
creeping in anger,
with glares that burst.

demons of nightmares,
torment your dreams,
but no one cares,
as no one sees.

screaming in silence,
running to nowhere,
keeping your distance,
but they are everywhere.

next thing you know,
you are wide awake,
but the dreams of sorrow,
will haunt you back.

THE NEXT DEATH
poem written by NURZAIRIN MUSTAFFA

the world is asleep,
leaving life in gloom,
then i come in creep,
emerge in any room.

i hunger the villain,
hiding what is true,
your false exertion,
invites me to you.

catch no more breath,
as your life cracks,
i portray death,
and you are next.

A NOTE FOR SLAYER
poem written by NURZAIRIN MUSTAFFA

jealousy and hatred,
bring desire of destruction,
though the world is sacred.

when purity becomes evil,
murder becomes ordinary,
then human is now devil.

but things can change,
when the death of innocence,
wakes the angel of revenge.


p/s: a note for slayer is my fave! i'll tell you why, later~

scribes

last week, i participated in the SCRIBES SHOWCASE..

an event under OCTOBERFEST..

by ENGLISH LANGUAGE CLUB..

scribes is a creative horror writing competition..

so basically, i have to either create plays, short stories, poems or lyrics..

so, i chose to write poems n lyrics...

but the theme was HORROR!

xpnah buat pon pasal horror2 nih..

n xde idea langsung la nk wat cmne...

so, i went around utp at nyte...

konon nk carik inspirations..

but i end up creating poems about LIFE...

adeyh...

i've been trying to think for about one week..

and one day,

it was in the evening...

but the weather was gloomy..

i was doing nothing in my room...

so,i closed the curtain, switched off the lights,

and everything went gloomy in my room...

dats when i got the inspirations...

in one day, i created about 3 poems n 2 lyrics...

excited sgt neh...

ye la, this was my fers tyme i found a medium to publish my writing talent to public..

ev.one would be assuming that i only love dancing..

but actually, there's more...

in fact, actually, i wanted to learn LITERATURE after my SPM...

but i didn't know how and no one was supporting me...

i think, i'm at the wrong place now..

but to think back..

if i wasn't here, i won't find wut i need.. (ayat pnoh makne.. saye je yg phm :P)

so, i sent five of the writings..

n one of the judges, Ms.Gail, a lecturer,

was surprised coz i sent 5 writings..

instead of only one like others...

so, she asked me to present all of them during the showcase...

OWHKAYH!! present??

omegott... xretiiiiiiiiii~~

x reti ok present2 nih..

tambah2 lagi poems..

bersajak?

errr... no way...

but poem recital is different from bersajak, ryte?

wuwuw... i was, again, no idea on how to present..

tanye sini, tanye sane.. hurmm.. still x reti..

segan ok! sian my frens yg kene kaco sbb tanye2 psl bende nih...

sampai i terbuang mase orang sbb riso sgt cmne nk present... (sorry ek?)

i was worried because i wanted to present my best...

this is important to me..

evtho it was a small competition...

n most importantly,

en.mohdnoorrosli dtg..

die knal, ok!

he knows me...

so i wanted to show him dat i have another talent too instead of dancing..

coz he knows me as a dancer.. only.........

so, dat nyte...

i had to come out on the stage for 5 times!

ahaha.. segan.. tp xpela.. diva sket.. heee..

n i presented all of them..

en.mohdnoorrosli nmpk mcm supportive gle to me..

t'kjot kot.. kah3.. (perasan!)

but i didn't got the chance to hear his feedback as i went back early dat nyte..

n the results..

i didn't got any place :(

3rd place pon xpat.. 2nd jgn hrap, 1st lagi laa...

not my day..

xpela.. fers tyme..

but that wasn't my intention..

i just wanted to participate to publish my writings..

dats all...

but!!

i got SPECIAL PERFORMANCE AWARD!

haha..

maybe sbb byk sgt anta..

or maybe terberiya sket mase present... ahah..

ok la kn..

feel appreciated enough..

i'll publish those writings in my next post ok?

pjg sgt la plak kt sini..

huhuhu...

the ugly truth

the truth: i can dance, i can sing, i can write, i can act
the ugly truth: i just can't...

the truth: i surrender everything
the ugly truth: i'm afraid...

the truth: i'm at home
the ugly truth: my heart's sumwhere else

the truth: i'm at utp
the ugly truth: i dun deserve...

the truth: i have money
the ugly truth: not mine...

the truth: i'm innocent
the ugly truth: i'm full of sins...

the truth: i hate the ugly truth
the ugly truth: it's true...

but...

the truth: i'm hypocrite
the ugly truth: i'm not... i'm just trying to make dreams come true...

Why

Why am I so brave?

When life is dangerous.

Why am I so sure?

When life is complicated.

Why am I so calm?

When life is problematic.

Why am I so happy?

When life is in misery.

Why am I questioning these?

When life has all the answers.

the glass

I have a glass,

and it's broken.

Don't touch it,

or even come near it,

coz you will bleed.

Give me some time,

I will mend it.

another side

give me a pen,

and a paper,

you will swim into me.

to siblings

ok.. dis post is specially dedicate to my kakak2 n abg2.. *abg?haha*

just wanna say thnx to all..

sbb byk spent tyme together..

i really cherish evone of u..

esp. the kakaks.. *sapek ngan izzi termasok la kn?*

ngahahahaha..

*hamka sket lg tuh*

:P

sbb..

family aku kecik.. aku ade 2 org abg je.. xde kakak, xde adik..

mmg bersyukur ade adek bradek..

tapiii...

(sile bace dgn nada sedih.. :P)

aku bosan dok umah.. slalu sowg2.. sepi weyyhh..

xde kawan nk men n gelak2...

xkn nk men2 ngan mak aku.. hahaha...

family aku jenis yg seyes.. kdg2 bowink la gk dok umah...

sbb tu la...

aku xkesah dok utp lelame ngan korg evtho tgh cuti..

ade ramai adek bradek kt sini...

srunuk..

evtho aku x ckp byk pon..

aku ske korg b'ckp..

ske borak2 ngan kowg..

ske tgk kerenah sume owg...

rase mcm hidop nih x keseorangan.. *cewah*

lagi satu..

igt lagi tyme kite same2 nanges kt v1d dulu... *oppss..pompuan je mase tuh*

sbb kite hampir give up nk trening... kite stress mase tuh..

*nk mengalir plak air mate ni..uishh..sabar2*

sume org meluahkn prasaan masing2 mcm ngadu kt siblings..

wuwuw...

syg kowg...

ske la lepak ngan kowg.. walaupon asyik lepak kt tmpt makan je..

ish3.. mmg tu je la tempat feveret...

ske btol candid kete ble lalu seblah...


thnx to dis blue viva yg berjasa m'angkut kitowg gi trening..
thnx to izah~ huhu..

pic atas nih tyme tgh blackout..

n suddenly en.amid berkate,

"saye rase tarian kamu da ok da.. jadi, since xde elektrik nih,

kite rehat la dulu, kite tgk wayang nak?"

haha..

*tetibe je tarian da ok kan.. padahal.... ish3*

terpaksa la layan kerenah en.amid yg ske sgt gi tgk wayang ape2 cite pon..

cite yg die da tgk pon nk tgk gk lagi.. ish3~

see.. tmpt makan lg..haha..

xdelah ni tyme break.. slalu lunch sesame...

candid lagi...

thnx to kete nih gak sbb tlg angkut gi trening..

thnx k.oyen :P

ok... tempat mkn lagi!! omegott.. mmg x kn kurus la kowg2 nih..

but i lyke da pic above.. haha.. lawak la kowg..

n thnx to izzi la sbb slalu jage kitowg..

n thnx sbb slalu kene jd subject utk dikenekan..

hahaha..

sume memain je tuh..

gurau2 manje gittuuuwww...*bluek*

ni tempat ape tuan2 dan puan2? tempat maakkkaaannn..

yeah.. ble xde trening tetibe.. mulelah otak tuh memanjangkn akalnye..

*jom g kuar makan jauh2!*

ouh.. n thnx to izah's dad sbb tumpangkn kitowg one nyte after Konsert Gamelan kt UKM tuh..

thnx for all the treat...

kalo xde die, merempat la kitowg mlm tuh... huhu..

kesimpulannye, time kaseh byk2 la kt korg..

da xtau nk ckp thnx cmne lg.. haha...

each of us have our own circle of friends and important ppl..

but there's always a moment when we need to step out of the circle and create another circle..

n this circle is V. special..

bcz evtho we're of different worlds,

we can do anything we want to do,

we can be anyone we wish to be,

we can tell anything we need to tell,

we can share everything we had..

n

everyone of u is unique n special in ur own way..

just be urself...

special thnx to:

en.amad

en.amid

k.oyen

k.puvi

k.firin

uyun

izah

xiao ci

fathi

izzi

shahrin

sapek

hamka

semang

bern
daus

hakim

k.abil

k.uya

k.mar

k.qish

is

eisak

:)